Tuesday, July 14, 2009
i'm officially 24... @ 9:03 PM
more birthday presents from my loved ones... and i really love the gifts. the watch from french connection (mum & sis), the cake and cards from my cute students and a nice pouch, and yes, i went to exchange my burberry bag to something i reallyyyyy like. =) and we topped up the amount. oops.
couldn't watch a movie last wednesday (yep, exact birthday) and so we went for karaoke!! (you can't say ktv as 'ktv' refers to those who ladies who offer you their companionship....and maybe something else la) wonderful session i would say. HEE.
i hardly have time now to mark students' work. i hardly have time now for family. i hardly have time now for leisure. i feel....suffocated.........what's exactly wrong with my time management???
Monday, July 06, 2009
OLD-er woman @ 3:02 AM
first of all, there was a combined celebration for june and i last thurday with the girls. thank you for the singtel vouchers! haha 3 years since i bot my phone with vouchers given by you girls...time for another one. it was great catching up with you 3!
next was St. James on saturday night @ Movida/Boiler. bob and Yan yan bot me gift. they are d's colleagues. Lennart and juline as well.. they shouldn't have... i like their gifts a lot.. love the Precious moment ornament from bob and YY. and the pair of earrings from Jules and Lennart. and of course... the gift from darling :)
I actually cried at his house twice before we went out. i felt very guilty that i am such a horrible fiancee.
21st june was our 4th year anniversary and same as last yr, d' did not give me anything. which sent me feeling all sad and unimportant and stuff like that. his reason being not able to find time.. i do buy him gifts every year anniversary. i do not want anything.. actually i was just hoping for a card... and because of that, i ignored him the whole afternoon....he did not go for lunch but went to get me a card....apologising and all... (ahhh. tearing again) we were back to normal that evening..
then saturday when he passed me my present, i was really surprised. It was a burberry bag. upwrapped it, and found it wasn't really to my liking... and i said it tactfully to him. but dear said he thought it was the nicest and most suitable for me. we couldn't exchange as it is already more than 7 days. i didn't look too sad but dear went to the website immediately to look for other designs. i then showed him the kind i like. but already told him i'll keep the bag since it was given my him. can't rem exactly when but i was crying because i recalled how mean i was to him on our anniversary and he actually used his bonus to buy me a bag and then i reacted in such a horrible way. It wasn't rude or anything but it could have been v hurting to him. yet all this silly man did was to keep telling me we can go back and exchange. he really loves me. and that makes me feel so small....in this relationship. he forgives me more easily than i do to him.
then after telling him i'm sorry and of course crying like a booboo by then. i thought i would stop crying. but no....i went on to read his card. it wrote: Dearest wifey, though you're a year older, you look younger and prettier! so I got you a pretty gift. It may not be handmade but it is definitely pretty. Hope you will like it!
What he wrote really just SLAPPED me hard in the mind again. what the hell was i thinking....? I'm not trying to be mushy here but i'm writing this down to tell myself that i will be a fool if i were to cheat on this man or leave him in this lifetime....
thank you Daryl. for all that you've done for me all these years. many more happy years to come and we shall shop for the little "bucket seats" for the car in the near future :) love you. very much.
(my eyes will have powerful double eyelids tomorrow. either that or i'll look like a goldfish)
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
welcome july! my birthday month... @ 8:12 PM
quite amazed that i actually did that. not a single compo marked. bad time management.
dear met with accident but both of us were not injured. but *dirty ghost* was. dear just got it back from the workshop today. too fast too careless. dirty ghost ended up spending 9 days in the *hospital*.
attended ah boon's wedding ROM at amara sanctuary on sunday. food was great. love the idae of wedding buffet more and more. yet my mind was just thinking about school reopening the next day and the mood wasn't too happy. haha... oh man. i'm now in the state thinking about too many things.... i need to find the passion back.... otherwise...i'll be miserable.
the passion. yes. i must have been to happy to see my students on Monday that i shouted too much to get their attention for our chat session. i was being my usual self, being a clown, making the students interested in the conversation. i then smell the blood in my throat. and the next morning i had a bad sore throat. doctor chok gave me 3 days MC straight and therefore i am only returning to school on friday. 1st wk of school : 2 days in school. my students must be so happy thinking they don't have to hand in the homework. and it's so cute when they keep asking you if there's any changes in the deployment like if they're gg to have a new teacher. i hope the worried look on their faces mean a good thing :)
i wore the N95 mask on monday, the waterproof coat and the gloves. because i'm one of the teachers in charge of looking after the unwell kids. i nearly suffocated in my very own carbon dioxide wearing the mask.....felt dizzy after 45 min, had to sit down. maybe i don't know the right way to breathe in the mask. when the operation stand down, we took off the coat and our arms were all wet..... perspiration. hmm. stepped into the staff room with the new centralised air-con system, we said to ourselves : i'm gonna fall sick just like this, it doesn't have to be H1N1 from the school kids"
haha. but i did not catch a flu. i just had a sore throat. hope my students miss me.